[Asmoday]

Hi,
I'm 24 years old and I'm wondering if I'm autist or not. I had 2 tests online. According to one of them I'm autist and according to other one I'm a little autist. I will write things about me here so some experts can tell if I'm autist or not. Please don't tell me to go to a doctor, this is not an option for me. I don't want to talk to anyone about this and it won't make any difference anyway. This will be a little long and my native language is not English so I'll appreciate it if you can read it all and give me an answer.

First of all I'm very antisocial and I was much more antisocial when I was a kid. Until I went to school it was very hard for me to go even 1 meter outside of the house. Until I was like 11-12 years old it was also very hard for me to talk to people other than my relatives. Actually I still don't like talking to strangers although I act like an actor so they don't notice it.

I have problems with my speech. I can't spell the "r" letter and my voice is thin and weird most of the time(although it's perfectly normal sometimes). I mean even if I use words without "r" letter sometimes other people turn their head to look at me.

When I'm outside I feel like my body movements are normal but if a camera records me and I watch it I see that it's not normal. And other people notice it too.

I'm smarter than most people. I know this sounds arrogant but look at other things I wrote about myself. None of them are nice. If I was arrogant I wouldn't write them. I don't calculate like computer(like some autistics do in movies) but I have many chess trophies and I'm the best chess player in my city. Most people I know think I'm very smart even some of my enemies. I'm also going to university(chemistry) right now although my grades are not good because I hate lessons.

6-7 years ago I was seeing a child psychiatrist. My parents gave me an unimportant excuse for that but I know that was not the reason. They also made me some tests like 10 years ago. I don't remember exactly but I saw something like print of my brainwaves on paper(they said it was not normal) and in one test I lied half an hour in something(like a thin bed in a long machine).

When I read the things I wrote it seems like I'm exaggerating everything. If we met I would try to act normal and you wouldn't notice anything but I'm not like that all the time. This means it's not physical and as far as I know autism is not physical also. I know you don't want to say you're certain that I'm autist or not just by reading the things I wrote but I will not go to doctor no matter what you say and although knowing if I'm autist or not will not change my life, it will shed a lot of light about many things. If there's more you need to know you can simply ask.

Thanks for answers,

[Aron]

Hi Asmoday.

Are you aware of a condition named "selective mutism"?

If not may I suggest you do some research into this.

There is actually some direct information @ Urban Health & Fitness (www.urban-fitness.co.uk)

[joe-anne]

hi i would suggest you do not go off tests online or ask on forums if you have or not, autism is not easy to diagnose because the spectrum is so complexed that only a consultant that specialises in it could tell you after some tests and seeing you in person.

you should see your gp and ask to be refered to a specialist consultant in that area if you have concerns